Life Gets In The Way

Wow... I have been so busy here lately with just life. Nothing in particular has happened, I have just found myself to not have quite as much free time here lately. That is my reason for the absence of a new blog. Last week, my cousin Allison came up from Georgia to visit. She stayed the night here and left the next day. It was so good to see her and her beautiful children. She has a little girl that is 3 and a little boy that is getting close to 5 months. It is really sad that her 5 month old sleeps better than my almost 9 month old, who still wakes up at night. I got really upset about it after she left and started on my war path to get Jacob to sleep through the night. Robb knows my determination about certain things, so he felt like it was important to remind me that breastfed babies usually don't sleep through the night until they are weaned and that Allison's baby is formula fed. Still, I know all this, but I can still dream that maybe someday I will have a breastfed baby that sleeps through the night before its weaned. My ultimate goal with the boys is to get them both sleeping together in the same room all night before Thanksgiving. Another thing about me is, I don't do real well with letting them 'cry it out'. I can only give them about 5 minutes in their room crying and then I fold. We let Baylee cry it out when she was a baby, but she was so good at putting herself to sleep, by the fourth night she wasn't crying at all when we put her down. I assumed Ryan would be the same way and WRONG!!! Ryan was so different, he changed my ideas about everything. So now, I just do whatever works, and Jacob does better somedays being laid down than others.

I am also having some problems with my mother that have been consuming a lot of my thoughts, unfortunately. I don't care to go into great detail about my mother, but let me just say that I worry a lot about her and if I am going to get a call from someone telling me she's dead. I have really changed a lot over the years and I am not as big of a worrier as I used to be (I come from a long line of them). I account that to my trust in God and that I really shouldn't worry because it does no good. I really feel like I am eating my words with this one, but then again, I don't know if it's really that I don't trust God. I just really don't wanna loose my mom like this; just having to sit back and watch her slowly kill herself. Oh well, I know God will take care of her, whatever the situation may be, and I am going to have to deal with it whether I like it or not. I am just not the one who is in control of it.

This post seems to be getting a little long so I will make the rest a little quicker. We have found a church and we start taking classes on Sunday to be able to join. We have been going to St. Pauls Episcopal downtown and have been really enjoying it and so have the kids.
My sling business is picking up a bit, I put some slings in the Just Between Friends sale this week. So far nothing has sold, but I am trying not to get discouraged. Robb is in the process of getting me a real website and I am going to start carrying standard colors like blue, pink, tan, yellow, black, etc.
And Finally, I miss all my friends! I feel like I have been locked in the house for two weeks (probably because I practiclly have). If anyone wants to get together for a playdate now that it's warming up a bit, shoot me an email! If anyone is interested in coming up to my house for a playdate, we have a big front yard and a new porch to sit on and watch the kids play. I will be getting furniture very soon for our new porch, that is as soon as I can decide what kind to get. :)